Biting down on her bottom lip, Lucy nodded, her hair tossing gently with the motion. "I just..." she began, very near fearfully. "I can't lose him, Jude." It was hardly above a whisper, and her eyes were beginning to water as she let herself fall against him, resting her head on his shoulder. "I can't lose him, too. Not now, not when everything should be so right - " The words were nearly muffled, spoken into fabric, her voice thick, but they were intelligeble nonetheless. "I love you, I do, but I love him too, and..." But she didn't even need to finish it; she just wrapped her arms more tightly around him, breathing in the fibers of his shirt, the way he smelled, as he rocked her right there in their new apartment.